20 march 07
best friends they argue all the time
you know it when they dont talk
you cool it with some lemon lime
and make up once they end their sulk.
best friends they hug you when you cry
you feel their warmth and comfort
you hold on to them and try
to do the same when they're hurt.
best friends you know that's what we'll be
50 years down when we're only left with dentures
we'll think about how we used to be
and sail through great adventures.
- amirah lychee
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its hard learning to let go of a friendship with someone you thought you knew and could trust.
i will not go to the extent and say that i have lost a friend because i think, on some level, i will always be willing to rekindle the bond that was shared by x and i. its easy to lay the blame on x and say that he/she never really proved themself but then again, it takes two. i do not know what i did or said to have pushed x so far and to have made him/her so uncomfortable but i am sorry because it was never my intention to make him/her feel lesser. i know the things you have said about me and they are ugly. when i first saw/heard i could not imagine that you were capable of calling someone you were friends with, someone whom you hung out with so often, those names. you shocked me with the things you said and you shook the foundations of our friendship. i cannot comprehend that you know we do not believe your lies, yet you do it anyway. are we so unimportant? whatever your feelings towards me are, i hold no anger towards you because i forgive you. i really do. whatever direction you decide to take with your life, i hope somewhere along the way you learn the importance of honesty and trust in any relationship.
im sad to have to let go but this has made me so much more aware of how lucky i am to be surrounded by the most wonderful friends, to have people like ami, jas and koon to help me get by. and pj & kranji peeps & my dance girls who always make life a little more interesting. and finally abby, who is so amazing i cannot describe with words how lucky i know i am.
bittersweet.
