as promised.

so the girls came over to my place first since it was open house day :)

ahhh hello beans! nice of you to make an appearance after 9685746 years!

jas in jali's kebaya. cute as a button! ...until she ripped it a little later.

my beautiful best friend who must beat boys away with a stick.

:)

alya tatiana, the cutest kid ive seen in a long long time.

everyone wanted to hug nadia!

im so glad we finally rounded up the ol' gang and relived some of the idiocy that defined our secondary days. oh god how i miss kranji. things were simple and clear cut and all we wanted to do was have a little fun. now everything is coded and things are left unsaid/undone and worlds are too far apart they may never collide. i wish i could say ive gotten past the insecurity and awkwardness of being in a new school, but no. instead, i wonder at how life can change so quickly in only 10 months. and marvel at how differently everything is from how i thought it would be. you know we make all these plans about who we're gonna be and what we're gonna do and who we're gonna be with, and then a couple of months down the road it hits you, oh wait - where am i again? so we destroy every plan we had ever made and unknowingly begin again, creating prophecies from the fragments of the past that will probably remain unfulfilled. koon and i talk often about the way people dont see us, the way our presence is not noticed for the most part. i give up wondering why. i dont care anymore. i just want things to change. for better or worse i dont care. im sick of stasis. of this stagnant, incomplete dwelling, aimless and unguided, drifting blind in a crowd. i am tired. exhausted that all this so called introspection is leading me nowhere. perhaps to an even deeper pit of anguish and uncertainty. mmm.. this might be the jack kerouac talking, but i think its pretty true.