dinner and coffee with poops and pudge on sat night was super fun. they came home with me cos i was too chicken to face an empty house, hahaha. yay for impromptu stayovers! we watched rush hour 3 and like the beginning of good luck chuck which is really weird btw before nishy left and ami and i stayed up talking talking talking. nishy woke us up at 7am and we went across the street for breakfast. thats pretty much it although its never really it theres always something more to say that cannot be said for fear of impropriety or whatever other ridiculous excuse i have made for myself. me no make sense? yes this is an effect of constant stress and the recent pangs of guilt and hurt and heartbreak and lets see oh yes more guilt. im such a @#$%$ for being so indecisive and i have a very bad case of switcharoo and i hate this so much about myself but i dont know what to do about it. its not like guys are any better and frankly im quite sick of them right now. shoo.

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anyway, im getting very good at going on 4 hours of sleep.