i want to laugh and cry at the same time. i dont know whether to be optimistic or disgusted that everything has turned out so so wrong. this is not how anything is supposed to be. im not supposed to be here. not here not here not here. im not supposed to be unhappy. im not supposed to not be excited about the rest of my life. im not supposed to be here. not here not here not here. im supposed to be happy and satisfied and content and planning my future with much enthusiasm because thats what i worked really hard for. i dont understand. why is life so unfair? why do we get to hope and pray and look forward to things that will never happen? why are best friends so far away? why are some people such shallow bimbos? why do they get to make me feel so small? why am i stuck, stuck, stuck with no place to go. why is life so unfair.
im sorry if i sound ungrateful. i think thats my biggest flaw.
